In the room I knew which cloak was Carrie's, it 
  was soft and full and blue like Marin's sea and the sky 
  above it near where cliffs grow rugged and blackened chips 
  of them rattle into the foam and are swallowed 
  and are forgotten even by birds 
  who used them for creche 
  and table and courting stage, and 
  in the room, too, was Esme(e)'s cape swirling rich 
  round her long shapely legs a tumult of subtle maroon. 
  
          A sad hue, some 
  thought, but I knew better. It was magnificent, 
  as was she, and suited her and  
  magnified her and drew her to the faultless lights 
  in corridors of theaters and opera houses, 
  entryways of lauded mansions, solemn 
  halls of law and legislature 
  where she swept up eyes and every yearning heart 
  though she would remain still as 
  the cutting blade once finished. 
There 
  were, in that room, other 
  things of Esme(e)'s. I could not help but see them 
  and in seeing know them.
In 
  the soft secret of the night only then trembling 
  comes the hope of escape. Like a whisper through 
  the fruited grove left abandoned 1 might expect 
  during the darkness by bird 
  and bug and animal and thief forgotten 1
 might think 
  with reason and be wrong. 
  
  There was no escape for me.
Had they known it all along?
They were not indiscriminate in 
songs, costumes, smiles, tales, secrets. Invitations.
It may not have been an invitation but a warning.
Equally impossible to ignore.
Had they known this?
Sad hue, sad seconding, sad
and worn the cape the
last I saw of it. I knew it, of course. 
        
  They possessed her lustre. They took her light. 
  They waited for her  gift 
  of her as did many. (1 
  did not need to know Esme(e). Seeing her 1 desired only to 
  know her; desiring brought the quickened vital beat which engendered knowing 
  or so 1 thought, wanting 
  so desperately, purely.) 
  
          The room was 
  possessed of her glories and echoed with her sadness. 
  For Esme(e) sadness was no lingering malaise, no 
  moist and hopeless sorrow but rather a 
  proud and strengthened adversary worthy and demanding never 
  relinquishing and never abating, never lessening 
  the gripping challenge and like a foul sliver driven 
  to the quick of 1's heart not 
  potent enough to kill, not small enough to slough 
  or swallow and heal that 
  majestic heart, 
  that treasured, incomparable heart whose 
  nature formed from breath of Esme(e)'s spirit 
  
  never before known. 
          Goddesses, heroines, 
  gods, heroes, sprites, demons, griffins, and gnomes, 
  what did they know of it? They could not see it, 
  they could not recognize it, and 
  so they could not envy it 1 
  might think. 
          I discovered 
  other. 
          Before that 
  I knew it. 
          I could not 
  save what was unsavable. 
          I could not 
  free myself and remain myself sunken 
  into caverns, courtesies, clever 
  with glaceed reproach. 
          It was inevitable. 
  
          Marzipan 
  hid the knife of destruction sugared 
  desolation how much more did 
  Esme(e)'s courage and intrepid spirit demand, did 
  demand more than any immortal could withstand 
  
  and so they did not need envy 
  or anger or impatience to act; I could see that; 
  I could see that coming. 
          Esme(e)!